Sometimes I take a step outside of my mind and I look at what's happening, and it's strange to think that I'm here in Japan doing what I'm doing. Last night I was in a university dormitory lobby, drinking with dozens of people from all over the world. I played Never Have I Ever with two Austrians, two Germans, one Swede, three Japanese, one Australian, and one other American at four in the morning. Not to be too philosophical, but what an experience.... I imagine what I'd be doing if I had stayed at my home university this year, and what I'm doing right now is just crazy.
I'm having problems dealing with loneliness. I was going through relationship problems with my boyfriend last week, and while I was emotionally numb, I feel like my closest friend here moved on to other friends. She now hangs out a lot with another one of my friends, and I don't seem them much anymore. Now that I'm back to my old self, I feel abandoned. It's difficult.
